jssf1992
Shrine Maiden
So, after a very long time, I feel that it is time that I moved on. To retire and leave this community for other places and people. The shrine, much as it has been a home to me on the internet over the years, has also changed much in that time. I am genuinely a generation older than almost everyone else here, having arrived in fall 2012 as a young college student with a lot of time, and now I’m a 29 year old man looking for a house with cheap rent and a job that will cover it. I speak infrequently, and when I do, I can’t put as much time into it as I would like.
I have become something of a ghost here, rarely seen and a reminder of the past. I haven’t posted on the Discord for months (if not longer), and I’m sure that there are many new staff that are unaware of my existence. I barely post on the forums, despite them being something that I once worked to have created. I have felt a need to safeguard what I know of this site’s past, I even often feel that I am the only one that remembers the good along with the bad. And of course, I have tried to reclaim something of that past. I remain by sense of obligation, as the ‘old one’ of the community, and by my endeavor to make and keep the new forum. These, however, do not keep me part of the community, do not endear me to what it is currently.
So, with the forum becoming more active, my distance from the current generation of this community has become clearer, and with it, my growing feeling of disconnect has reached a point where I believe it is time for me to bow out and move on.
This community has meant a great deal to me over the years. More than anything, my creative spirit has grown by my being at Moriya Shrine. The roleplaying let me both write and practice in a way that I never could have otherwise, and from it I learned the inimitable satisfaction of having created something. I’ve seen many others also create something of their own (not all Touhou related!), and even gotten be part of some. This combined with the inspiration of ZUN as a solo creator, has had an effect on me and my desire to be a writer that I couldn’t possibly understate or even fully understand.
But this time has passed. My old friends on this site have long since moved on, and my remaining in the hope that those old days will return is fruitless. There is a season for all things, and I have had a season to rejoice, a season to work, and a season to be nostalgic. It is now time, I think, to let go. Without malice, bitterness, or unfinished business.
May you all fare well, always remember that the person on the other side of the screen is far more complex and precious than the little words on our pages could represent, and I hope that for some of you at least, that this place will mean as much to you as it did to me.
I have become something of a ghost here, rarely seen and a reminder of the past. I haven’t posted on the Discord for months (if not longer), and I’m sure that there are many new staff that are unaware of my existence. I barely post on the forums, despite them being something that I once worked to have created. I have felt a need to safeguard what I know of this site’s past, I even often feel that I am the only one that remembers the good along with the bad. And of course, I have tried to reclaim something of that past. I remain by sense of obligation, as the ‘old one’ of the community, and by my endeavor to make and keep the new forum. These, however, do not keep me part of the community, do not endear me to what it is currently.
So, with the forum becoming more active, my distance from the current generation of this community has become clearer, and with it, my growing feeling of disconnect has reached a point where I believe it is time for me to bow out and move on.
This community has meant a great deal to me over the years. More than anything, my creative spirit has grown by my being at Moriya Shrine. The roleplaying let me both write and practice in a way that I never could have otherwise, and from it I learned the inimitable satisfaction of having created something. I’ve seen many others also create something of their own (not all Touhou related!), and even gotten be part of some. This combined with the inspiration of ZUN as a solo creator, has had an effect on me and my desire to be a writer that I couldn’t possibly understate or even fully understand.
But this time has passed. My old friends on this site have long since moved on, and my remaining in the hope that those old days will return is fruitless. There is a season for all things, and I have had a season to rejoice, a season to work, and a season to be nostalgic. It is now time, I think, to let go. Without malice, bitterness, or unfinished business.
May you all fare well, always remember that the person on the other side of the screen is far more complex and precious than the little words on our pages could represent, and I hope that for some of you at least, that this place will mean as much to you as it did to me.
