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Onshi
Sounds a little stupid, especially as it seems I might have a little idea on how to do it. However, the thing I am not very sure about is the manner/style for it. It is not really a problem for me with the vehicles, where it seems like I have an idea what I want to do. but when it comes to humans/characters, that's where it becomes complicated. With so much reference in the kind of "how to [...]", one can easily get confused and no longer be sure what to pick from. It is awesome to have so many alternatives, but at the same time, where do you start from? Do you reference drawn tutorials, or go directly for images of the real materials. Here are the two options I am caught in between:
1) Draw in an already established manner
Seems like an easy option. However, after a while you start feeling "wait, why did I pick this style to begin with?". For a little bit of context. Back in 2020, I decided to take drawing more seriously and actually try to improve. I had quite a lot to work on, especially since I was never before bothered how my humans will look like.
Drawing like this at the age of 18 really makes you question yourself why you have been so uncaring until that point
As I started to look into guides for where to start for, I have become increasingly confused, as all the guides and reference material gathered where done by different people, in different manners, and nothing seemed to fit. After a few basic drawings of a human shape, I decided to actually draw something. And the result was this thing below. My first bit of fanart ever drawn, representing season 1 Tari from Meta Runner.
Finally something more human, as of August 2020. Even if she looks flat like a wooden plank, at least it looked human. Still not certain what style I should go for, a friend of mine who was also exercising drawing at the time gave this a look, and came with the following conclusion: "this has very strong anime/manga vibe; maybe you should go with that style". And so, from that moment on and until today, the predominant way of drawing for me has been manga. Since this came not too long before getting into Touhou, I think it boosted my journey down the rabbit hole.
Weirdly enough, going with anime drawing and watching a lot of example on a daily basis for almost 2 years (Touhou was a giant boost, with close to 20K images seen in just over a year), I developed the following problem: I can no longer properly perceive the shapes of a real human being. Not really in the weeb way, but there were some details I forgot how they actually work. Real shapes of body parts, some mechanics, things that do not really align with the tropes and are basically close to impossible to translate in other styles an so on. Even yesterday I was talking to someone about Michelangelo and his works while laughing a bit about why his women look like "men with boobs", and I literally forgot basic concepts of anatomy - yes, boobs can be small; they contain a lot of fat, and if the woman is jacked, that fat is burnt. And I think there are more examples of "how my perception of reality has been greatly warped", but that would just make me look like I forgot what a real woman looks like. Maybe I should just use more images of real people for reference when drawing. Anyway, back to the art part.
And speaking of Michelangelo (gonna put this in spoiler, even if it is a work of art, just for the sake of safety online - people really are censoring even paintings and statues nowadays)
Nowadays, I am in a point of wondering if I actually want to draw like this, or I just like it for how it looks. My answer on that is not clear, and this marks the beginning of next section.
2) Try drawing something my own way
Probably the more difficult of the options, but also the more interesting one. Someone once told me that drawing is more than just combining styles from others, as that would only end up in some sort of "Frankenstein" work. In the past months, I have been thinking more and more about creating something unique. Something of my own, to make me feel like I achieved something. However, every time I tried so, I did a drawing or two at most, then reverted to the old ways. It does not help that I am not drawing very often (way less than I'd like to), and it takes me forever to actually convince myself to start a new project. Besides, most of time I never end up too satisfied with what I do, especially due to the fact I am setting myself too high bars and unrealistic objectives. Which only has negative effects on you, especially when you end up comparing your work with that of people with greater experience instead of comparing it with your previous work (I am literally too blinded to see my own progress)
(various attempts at drawing something more different)
Usually, I tried testing new thing first on a special character I have created back in 2020, a college girl called Catherine (Cathy). However, just like I was saying early, I am plagued by the wrong idea of never being satisfied with my own things because they are not "good enough". By now, I am not even sure if I should stick with anime more, even of it modelled (possibly) forever the way I draw and perceive artworks, or be more brave and try again something new until I can be more satisfied with it.
And even when I draw something that I want to be different from the manga trope style, somehow it ends up getting back there. Earlier, I was talking about how confusing it can be to find a reference in the "how to draw" kind of search since everyone is different, and that maybe I should opt for photos of real people. Problem is that I am still very prude, even at the age of 20. My post about naughty fanservice seem to show otherwise, but I still paradoxically feel shame for looking at a photo of a naked woman, even if it serves just for reference on human anatomy and how to get my shapes right. Which is quite a bit of a bummer, especially if you want to just draw a little better. All I want currently is to feel proud of my work, or at the very least be satisfied it looks better than last time.
3) Final thoughts
Past two years have been very messy. I am still trying to figure out what I am doing, and the chart I will post below shows it very well. Too often have I switched from one thing to another, and not enough drawing due to aforementioned problems did not help. This is what I have been doing for the past two years. If my drawing chart was working like the "political compass", it would have been all over the place. Not that this one is not all over the place anyway. But I think it makes sense for it being so messy in just two years, with everything being self-taught and myself being a little messy. Anyway, I really should figure out in what direct I want to move next, and finally decide what to do.
(never managed to put them all together, but it goes March 2020-April 2022)
1) Draw in an already established manner
Seems like an easy option. However, after a while you start feeling "wait, why did I pick this style to begin with?". For a little bit of context. Back in 2020, I decided to take drawing more seriously and actually try to improve. I had quite a lot to work on, especially since I was never before bothered how my humans will look like.
Drawing like this at the age of 18 really makes you question yourself why you have been so uncaring until that point
As I started to look into guides for where to start for, I have become increasingly confused, as all the guides and reference material gathered where done by different people, in different manners, and nothing seemed to fit. After a few basic drawings of a human shape, I decided to actually draw something. And the result was this thing below. My first bit of fanart ever drawn, representing season 1 Tari from Meta Runner.
Finally something more human, as of August 2020. Even if she looks flat like a wooden plank, at least it looked human. Still not certain what style I should go for, a friend of mine who was also exercising drawing at the time gave this a look, and came with the following conclusion: "this has very strong anime/manga vibe; maybe you should go with that style". And so, from that moment on and until today, the predominant way of drawing for me has been manga. Since this came not too long before getting into Touhou, I think it boosted my journey down the rabbit hole.
Weirdly enough, going with anime drawing and watching a lot of example on a daily basis for almost 2 years (Touhou was a giant boost, with close to 20K images seen in just over a year), I developed the following problem: I can no longer properly perceive the shapes of a real human being. Not really in the weeb way, but there were some details I forgot how they actually work. Real shapes of body parts, some mechanics, things that do not really align with the tropes and are basically close to impossible to translate in other styles an so on. Even yesterday I was talking to someone about Michelangelo and his works while laughing a bit about why his women look like "men with boobs", and I literally forgot basic concepts of anatomy - yes, boobs can be small; they contain a lot of fat, and if the woman is jacked, that fat is burnt. And I think there are more examples of "how my perception of reality has been greatly warped", but that would just make me look like I forgot what a real woman looks like. Maybe I should just use more images of real people for reference when drawing. Anyway, back to the art part.
And speaking of Michelangelo (gonna put this in spoiler, even if it is a work of art, just for the sake of safety online - people really are censoring even paintings and statues nowadays)
2) Try drawing something my own way
Probably the more difficult of the options, but also the more interesting one. Someone once told me that drawing is more than just combining styles from others, as that would only end up in some sort of "Frankenstein" work. In the past months, I have been thinking more and more about creating something unique. Something of my own, to make me feel like I achieved something. However, every time I tried so, I did a drawing or two at most, then reverted to the old ways. It does not help that I am not drawing very often (way less than I'd like to), and it takes me forever to actually convince myself to start a new project. Besides, most of time I never end up too satisfied with what I do, especially due to the fact I am setting myself too high bars and unrealistic objectives. Which only has negative effects on you, especially when you end up comparing your work with that of people with greater experience instead of comparing it with your previous work (I am literally too blinded to see my own progress)
(various attempts at drawing something more different)
Usually, I tried testing new thing first on a special character I have created back in 2020, a college girl called Catherine (Cathy). However, just like I was saying early, I am plagued by the wrong idea of never being satisfied with my own things because they are not "good enough". By now, I am not even sure if I should stick with anime more, even of it modelled (possibly) forever the way I draw and perceive artworks, or be more brave and try again something new until I can be more satisfied with it.
And even when I draw something that I want to be different from the manga trope style, somehow it ends up getting back there. Earlier, I was talking about how confusing it can be to find a reference in the "how to draw" kind of search since everyone is different, and that maybe I should opt for photos of real people. Problem is that I am still very prude, even at the age of 20. My post about naughty fanservice seem to show otherwise, but I still paradoxically feel shame for looking at a photo of a naked woman, even if it serves just for reference on human anatomy and how to get my shapes right. Which is quite a bit of a bummer, especially if you want to just draw a little better. All I want currently is to feel proud of my work, or at the very least be satisfied it looks better than last time.
3) Final thoughts
Past two years have been very messy. I am still trying to figure out what I am doing, and the chart I will post below shows it very well. Too often have I switched from one thing to another, and not enough drawing due to aforementioned problems did not help. This is what I have been doing for the past two years. If my drawing chart was working like the "political compass", it would have been all over the place. Not that this one is not all over the place anyway. But I think it makes sense for it being so messy in just two years, with everything being self-taught and myself being a little messy. Anyway, I really should figure out in what direct I want to move next, and finally decide what to do.
(never managed to put them all together, but it goes March 2020-April 2022)

