TheM3ds

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>A mysterious mist covers all of Gensokyo, much of the dismay of the local shrine maiden. >*Camera pans to the sky, then to the hakurei shrine.* >*marisa swoops in* Reimu, there's red mist covering the sky! >Reimu, Voiced by Crinstina Vee Valenzuela : Hmm, looks like today it will be cloudy with a chance of bullets. >This summer >*Turning Japanese by the Vapors plays* >Reimu: So how do we get rid of this mist? >Marisa Replies: By finding the one who caused it, duh! >Join Reimu and Marisa as they venture to save Gensokyo form the Scarlet Devil Mansion crew. > Cirno: I'll cryo-freeze you with some English beef! >With a colorful personality to boot >Reimu: So you're the behind this incident. >Remilia speaking broken English: I'mA Sorry, I dontu speaka japaneseu >Can both girls solve this incident before it's too late? >Find out in the upcoming premiere of: Touhou: Red Mist! >Coming this summer I'm sorry.

Hey Mevs, It's been a while. I was wondering where you were this whole time, but now that I've read your post I can understand where you're coming from. While I don't have a lot to say, I certainly suffered from loneliness and anxiety to the point where it was slowly driving me to the point of madness and it almost ruined my life completely, that was one of the many reasons why I was seeking therapy to begin with. The amount of days and nights I've spent all alone was truly painful to me since I moved out of my dad's house which was toxic as fuck to in, I'm honestly glad I don't live with him anymore. Lemme just say: Seeking therapy was one of the best life decisions I have ever made and it made my life significantly better. I may not have a lot of friends (or any at all) and sure I don't trust some people nowadays but I'm honestly doing much better than I was back then. I'm just glad you're doing alright, hope everything works out for you. Cheers, mate.

I have a bit of an odd story behind my name. It was a cold night in 2021 and I was completely alone in my room, I didn't have any friends due to me disconnecting myself from people after some traumatic events that happened during that year, I disparately wanted to talk to someone so I decided to look up sites that I can instantly message people, I don't remember what site it was but as far as I know it was anonymous. I've thought about making a name that sounded edgy and gothic while being reminiscent of the old days of the internet, so I settled with my current username: TheM3ds. Fun fact about my username name: it was inspired by one of my favorite bands The Cure.

I excluded characters from Touhou 16 to 18 since I'm not familiar with them, as well as PC-98 since there's only a handful of characters I like such as Mima and Shinki. I've done this sorter weeks ago, so it's still new.

I honestly keep forgetting about her name, let alone her existence, which is a shame since she could have a more important role in the print works but alas that'll never happen. What a shame.

You know, I've been feeling out of touch with Touhou lately as well, in terms of canon I think I just stopped paying attention it and just stared to enjoy the series for it's characters, I'm not much of a lore expert but even I must admit that I'm barely invested in it nowadays since I care more about imagining my version of gensokyo, again I'm just in it for the characters and art, I honesty wish I could create some stories of my own one day, I'm just a secondary fan since I mainly engage in fan works and would like to make my own but even then I haven't figured it out myself. Now I hate talking about this but with the amount of lewd art I've seen makes me feel like I've sort of become this degenerate just by looking at it and I hate it, I feel like I've lost touch with not only myself but with reality as well. I feel like I've corrupted my enjoyment of the series to the point where I'm paranoid to the point where I would be shamed by others for my enjoyment of the series, I.E. if someone called me a degenerate if I enjoyed this thing that is looked down upon or to a lesser degree receive disapproval or shame from members of the touhou community either because I said or made something controversial, at this point I can't tell if I'm just afraid of my downfall or I'm just overthinking shit. I know this isn't healthy to think about and at this point I've just been wondering if I should just take a brake from this community or just Touhou entirely. It just hurts known what joy I had is slowly dwindling into misery and I have been trying improve my life but as always there's gotta be something to fuck my shit up. Ah, but do I know, at this point I'm still struggling with a bunch of things I don't want to be dealing with. Edit: If the moderation team is reading this then I apologize for copying this post and sending it to other post, I made an error and decided to edit the original instead, if I violated the rules then I will accept punishment.

Edit: Fuck wrong post, just moved post appropriate topic. Sorry about that.

Admittedly, I have watched some Touhou YouTubers like Perldrop, Megapig9001, Suwawako ETC. but I've never bothered to subscribe to them because I'm just not interested and I don't want to bother. Sorry, but I don't follow most Touhou YouTubers. It's usually sites like Twitter I avoid using because I used to be in a bad place in my life and the site was making my life miserable, plus with elon now owning the site I don't see any reason to return to that godawful site, besides it stopped being good since 2018. I avoid big discord servers with at least 1000 online users or so since it saves me the time and patience. Also I like Fumos, I just find it ridiculous how people spend alot a money on what is essentially beanie babies for anime/Touhou fans, I honestly don't feel bad for spending money on a bootleg fumo, lol. That's all for now since it's getting late.

I've been on the internet for a long time, I've seen many people come and go in a blink of an eye, especially in fandoms. I cannot stress how sterile and saturated everything feels nowadays, I rarely sense a feel of community on most sites anymore, I feel like the longer you stay in one circle of a fan base the more likely you'll end up burning out in my opinion. With the current state of the touhou fandom I can only express disappointment towards the lack creators willing stop outside the box and make something that isn't another cutesy or "funny" meme, sure we have some fans who make some high-quality content but that pales in comparison to someone who has step outside the boundaries of is typically done in a Touhou fanwork (I think), it's just a shame sites like YouTube, Reddit or Twitter don't promote this kind of thing, people are too afraid to step outside their comfort zones. It's a shame honestly since I do believe there are creative and inspiring fans who can make beautiful works art and yet that rarely (if not, ever) happens at all. After my experience with Touhou on YouTube I can say that I am not optimistic for the possibilities for video makers since they pretty recycle meme formats in order to gain views or they just play it safe and make something by the books basic by making the characters cute but with no substance behind it or worse make videos pandering to the lowest common denominator and appeal to horny weebs with AMSR videos while neglecting the fact the characters would never do this in canon, I'm also tried of all the hype behind fumos since there so over hyped up by man children who pay for these overpriced plush dolls that are limited in stock anyway, you can enjoy these thing all you want but I just find all this to be ridiculous, call me a pretentious asshole all you want but when things are so depraved of humanity or decency then it becomes a problem when a fanbase loses touch with reality and becomes a joke of itself, a shell of it former self. I feel like the whole "Less work = More points" thing on the internet has overstayed it's welcome and has done more harm than good, everything is monitored and when you do something slightly risky like say: bring up dark topics of death, trauma, mental illness, dark humor ETC. Than you're likely to meet with disapproval but it depends on how dark the subject is, I get some people are not comfortable with it but at the same time why does everyone have to be concerned with safety all the time? I swear at this point censorship is going to get so bad to the point where it's all just sparkles and rainbows on screen. Feel free to disagree with me, honestly I wish I could write more but honestly I don't know what more I can say.

I use Firefox with Brave search engine since I was fed up with Google and DuckDuckGo and wanted my privacy to be protected at the costs, so I made the switch and it was absolutely worth it.

As someone who has been using the internet since my childhood, been exposed to both the good and bad aspects of the internet. I grew up watching flash cartoons and YTP's and some other old YouTube videos many years age, though when I reached my teens I felt like my reached my YouTube brain-rot phase and it only grew worse as I reached adulthood (maybe), I tried to limit my viewing of most videos on the internet but even I still waste my time with them, I've seen a lot of videos, from the tip of the iceberg to the obscure and niche to even creepy and uncanny (during high-school at least) videos at times. Anyways I wish I can say more but I can't think of anything else. I know this isn't Touhou related but I though I would share my brain-rot experience with y'all. Fart Extra Reverb