need little help about major emotion problem

[スカーレット大鎌]

so short story
about two week ago somehow i get little problem causing the cursor di disappear so i end up reinstall everything and well everything go fine mostly my file and stuff still there but i found that windows.old contain MOSTLY important files on it and i not have any plan to move most of them....and today without any warning everything on it gone and well...i really triggered from inside by it atleast i got very important lesson.
but i post here if...anyone can well comfort me even a bit i don't really mind to so i can forget my problem.

[Nitorium]

I am sorry to hear that! :( 

I hope you are doing well now.

[Sahek Seven]

I also can't play most of the games with my Intel Graphics HD 2500. I have beaten Dying Light so many times with 640x480 resolution with super low config which was making everything very low polygonal, shadows were bugging out, and I had most of the time no more than 27 fps (in best case) [I have beaten the game in nightmare difficulty this way multiple times]
I can't even play Half Life 2 on max settings without lags.
And I always turn off vsync wherever possible, that stuff kills my perfomance and causes glitches.
Althrough you can see that I played games like Cyberpunk and Dishonored 2 on my steam account, I have done it through Geforce Now, but don't hurry to be happy for me. Because of the my internet, most of the time I was playing with insine lags every 0,5 seconds, shuttering, delayed input and overall 144p like picture quality it's surprisingly how I even played these games.
You may ask why I have such a bad internet and can't buy a new PC. The truth is that since Februally 2022 I live in russian occupation on the eastern south of Ukraine. Russian has entered my town (if it's even can be called town, considering how small it is) a few days after declaring global war and established terrible regime where survival is in the first place, it's a miracly we even have any electicity and internet most of the time. It's never safe from russian authorities, it's not enough to just don't do any resistance, FSB searches even for people which it considers pro-ukrainian, even if they don't promote anything pro-ukrainian, the crime is considered to even think the way they don't want to think. It's like in that roman from George Orwell called "1984". How they understand if the person is pro-ukrainian even if the person doesn't say anything? It can be a report from neighboors, who suspects you to be pro-ukrainian (which are rewardable from occupant authorities), it can be lack of desire to assimilate with russia (not taking passport for example), it can suspicious behaviour of family members. What do they do to people they find pro-ukrainian? They can lock you in basement for a few days and then have a constant and then stalk you whenever possible, they can force you to demonstratively do something pro-russian, or in worst case scenario they tend to sometimes take people or entire families and drive them to minefields of the frontline and force without anything cross that mine field to get to Ukrainian side. And I haven't even talked about what will they do if they find out that you have some family members in Ukrainian army, they beat you up and make injuries which sometimes led to victim's death, like with that one man who refused to tell anything about his son who was in zsu and died from injuries made by russians, but thats a whole other story... Russians tend to make raids on living houses when having suspicous, usually at night when people sleep. FSB comes to the house and force their way in if the people don't responde to knoking on the door, they search for EVERYTHING, that means all objects and all info and contacts on gadgets (phones, computers). They may find troubles with you just for finding a person in your contacts they might not recognize being relative to you, or just having a weird nickname signed in your phone. Russian can find troubles with everthing, if you before the war had a registered bank account in Ukraine and left login or bank site shortcut on your gudget, that might be already a sign for them that you're "pro-ukrainian" for not getting rid of it. Problems can come from anywhere really.
+ everyday rockets and jets flying nearby.

[スカーレット大鎌]

8 hours ago, Sahek Seven said:

I also can't play most of the games with my Intel Graphics HD 2500. I have beaten Dying Light so many times with 640x480 resolution with super low config which was making everything very low polygonal, shadows were bugging out, and I had most of the time no more than 27 fps (in best case) [I have beaten the game in nightmare difficulty this way multiple times]
I can't even play Half Life 2 on max settings without lags.
And I always turn off vsync wherever possible, that stuff kills my perfomance and causes glitches.
Althrough you can see that I played games like Cyberpunk and Dishonored 2 on my steam account, I have done it through Geforce Now, but don't hurry to be happy for me. Because of the my internet, most of the time I was playing with insine lags every 0,5 seconds, shuttering, delayed input and overall 144p like picture quality it's surprisingly how I even played these games.
You may ask why I have such a bad internet and can't buy a new PC. The truth is that since Februally 2022 I live in russian occupation on the eastern south of Ukraine. Russian has entered my town (if it's even can be called town, considering how small it is) a few days after declaring global war and established terrible regime where survival is in the first place, it's a miracly we even have any electicity and internet most of the time. It's never safe from russian authorities, it's not enough to just don't do any resistance, FSB searches even for people which it considers pro-ukrainian, even if they don't promote anything pro-ukrainian, the crime is considered to even think the way they don't want to think. It's like in that roman from George Orwell called "1984". How they understand if the person is pro-ukrainian even if the person doesn't say anything? It can be a report from neighboors, who suspects you to be pro-ukrainian (which are rewardable from occupant authorities), it can be lack of desire to assimilate with russia (not taking passport for example), it can suspicious behaviour of family members. What do they do to people they find pro-ukrainian? They can lock you in basement for a few days and then have a constant and then stalk you whenever possible, they can force you to demonstratively do something pro-russian, or in worst case scenario they tend to sometimes take people or entire families and drive them to minefields of the frontline and force without anything cross that mine field to get to Ukrainian side. And I haven't even talked about what will they do if they find out that you have some family members in Ukrainian army, they beat you up and make injuries which sometimes led to victim's death, like with that one man who refused to tell anything about his son who was in zsu and died from injuries made by russians, but thats a whole other story... Russians tend to make raids on living houses when having suspicous, usually at night when people sleep. FSB comes to the house and force their way in if the people don't responde to knoking on the door, they search for EVERYTHING, that means all objects and all info and contacts on gadgets (phones, computers). They may find troubles with you just for finding a person in your contacts they might not recognize being relative to you, or just having a weird nickname signed in your phone. Russian can find troubles with everthing, if you before the war had a registered bank account in Ukraine and left login or bank site shortcut on your gudget, that might be already a sign for them that you're "pro-ukrainian" for not getting rid of it. Problems can come from anywhere really.
+ everyday rockets and jets flying nearby.

tbh i feel bad for you ik i feel like bit ungrateful for what i have now and want more but i suppose  to always look the other and also i just hope world will become a better place i still don't understand does nobody taking lesson from ww1 and 2.

[スカーレット大鎌]

well after some word i got here i wanna say thanks y'all i appreciate it